As you can see I am 1 year and almost 1 month free from alcohol. I used to be 2 years free from hash but I caved in lately because I need to escape my reality, it was too hurtful. So I went back and bought hash, smoked it. It helped. But he also made me a zombie the next few days. I smoked 3 nights in a row.
For vaping and cigarettes well I started in 2021, I never could stand the smell of smokers but somehow I wanted to try it at a party and fell into it pretty badly.
I feel like I need to quit everything right away and I am doing it, because I am at risk of taking other substances (already took some) and I have a hell of an addictive personality, I even avoid casinos' games such as poker and stuff because I am an addict. It's in my DNA, lots of alcoholism and drug abuse in my family. I'm feeling both like crap from the withdrawal and at the same time so excited that I stopped and I while I feel like crap I don't have urges to go back buy a pack of cigarettes or something. My work is 0,75 miles from my house. I am going to skip the bus and walk to work everyday and walk back to my house.
Once everything will stabilize substances-wise, I'll start looking into my diet and a workout routine.
I want to turn my life around. I am motivated.
by Nusubor
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Congrats! Putting the financial savings on there really puts it into perspective on how expensive these addictions are.